So far, so good? Anyhow, far is the word

It's been a few months since I last wrote. Had loads of stuff in my mind... and in this case I even have a cold or some... thing that makes me cough and leaves my throat sore.

The grand master plan of migrating has to be postponed for a few months more. I'm at the brink of losing my job and on the other hand I've already been on TV with my reenactment group. I've seen people backing my words in some status updates in FB and much more...

I was getting worried: I felt tired, distressed, apathetic toward everything. Until I realized something: it's the system, it's what it wants everyone to feel: If your senses numb your thinking they can keep in power and profit from our unhappiness. Thus, I'm trying (because it ain't easy) to be relentless, I'm trying to be positive, I'm trying to only do one thing at a time... and that is really difficult for me, I mean, imagine your brain works at 100 mph... well mine goes about 300mph, and we use the same fuel, so I ran out of fuel much faster.

Anyhow, I'm not really sure where I'm headed to except that I'll turn 30 in a few months and still got my whole life ahead of me. But in the meantime... I need to finish my fucking master's thesis and present it. Sigh. I hate "academic research". I just like learning for the fun of it, I like knowing stuff and getting to understand things in a much profounder way.

I'm a useless bastard to many, but I'm just lil' ole me and me thoughts! And happy 'bout it!